At 32 years old, I found my voice. I am now on a quest to live life instead of survive it. The past is in the past, but my story must be told to continue moving forward. I hope this page gives someone else the courage to not only find their voice but share their own story. Life is good and we are worth it!


I want to leave this little note on my own personal mini blog in dedication to my oldest sibling.  This isn’t late, it is just well timed.  Thank you for absolutely everything you did for me.  

November 17, 2012

Revelation of a strange addiction
Each relationship driven by division

Earmarked by mental derision 

Always the victim

Change of course while setting pace
New tomorrows yet have no face

Settling thoughts and summoning moods for a remedy
Intelligent thoughts hold no solution in solidarity

A curse must be broken to reach sanctuary

Shared from Google Keep

“You raped her body. You raped her mind. You turned her mind inside out.”

"…but she… SHE got YOU!”

Law and Order - Criminal Intent, quote Shared from Google Keep

To the sadistic petorass who claims a right to fatherhood:

Telling people that the reason your daughter won’t talk to you is that “She claims to have had sexual relations with me” is your best tell yet. Ever watched a good poker game to see what people reveal about themselves …without words?

You stupid son of a bitch. I did know I outranked you in basic mental capability and skills of appropriate social interaction, but this solidifies to a curious people group… the level you will attempt to put your daughter on to prove your own non-existent worth.

This reminds me of when you read my manifesto of courage in email form… and through your pawn of a wife, offered to buy my silence for $280.

I take consolation in the possibility that the god you have conjured up… may indeed be waiting for you in your afterlife. Oh, you are so fucked.

Let me ask you something: Why don’t people trust their instincts?

…It’s hard to believe that the fear of offending can be stronger than the fear of pain; but do you know what? It is.

Martin Vanger, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo (U.S. 2011)

If people want to let you go, just let them do it. They may not understand who you are. So don’t play around with fire; don’t give them their cake and let them eat it too. Here is your rule of thumb: they either commit to you or get none of you.